I can't fucking help it,
My bones are shaking under my skin,
My mind so heavy and out so empty,
I've lost track of everything.
Is this what I always wanted,
I'd wake up scared and shiver back to sleep
On the long walks home I would ask myself,
Why are we so alone,
Chasing each others shadows in the dark.
Get me the fuck out of here alive.
And all the answers I can not take,
And the questions make less sense every fucking day
I've waited long enough for the end.
I've seen snakes with pretty faces and bloodshot eyes.
Nothing will drag me deeper
Than hearing your voice from across a dim lit room
Nothing will bring me back to life,
The reapers grip so tight
I'm scared I let those years go to waist,
So long ago the last time I saw your face
As the train pulled away,
I saw you smile and wave.
I dipped my head and focused
On the features of your face
As the hours passed,
I wish I never made it home without you
DESTROY ME, DESTROY ME
I've lost track of everything,
This life has lost all meaning
It's too late. There's no time for goodbyes,
My youth has given up on me, I'm dying inside,
Is this all I know, this deathbed is my home
Take my life away
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I generally appreciate the album by album move away from hardcore towards extreme metal. Yet for me personally, this is where the balance is perfect. Kind of like Metallica's Ride the Lightning: subsequent albums were more sophisticated and complex, yet less intense, too. Great to come back to, again and again. jornfin
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Musically this feels more experimental for La Dispute reminding me of their Here, Hear releases. Very atmospheric and easy to lose your self in. Perfect for the next time you’re contemplating your existence. (Also found out the guitarist builds his own pedals and used them on this record; neato!) Mikey
On their debut record, the London hardcore upstarts cross-up mosh-ready fare with melancholic ambient passages, weeping guitars, and virtuosic vocal harmonies, but its romantic veneer is much more complicated than it seems. Bandcamp Album of the Day Jan 30, 2019
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This album is haunting, beautiful, and cathartic. One of the best post-black metal albums out there. I bought a cd on Discogs, but needed the vinyl. Доберман Сатз